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Oct 20th
- everything is this way because of him
- i got my tongue pierced because of him
- i got depressed because of him
- i found out about my ocd and ocpd because of him
- i nearly killed myself or did something regrettable because of him
- i bought everything i could for him
- i loved him
- he lead me on
- he lead me to believe he would accept
- i was so sure he was going to say yes
- he shattered my dreams
- in just a few small words
- he doesn’t want to see me anymore
- i cant figure out what i’m supposed to do
- its killing me to have sorted out everything but this
- its been months, i still think he has a bad distorted image of me, mainly from what i used to look like and from what people have said to him about me
- he knows everything and has been there all the time
- i don’t know what i should do
- ill call him later to try and talk about it
- i get nervous when he shuts me out like this
- i breakdown because i feel like i’ve lost again, and again
- i’m so obsessed with him
- its like a disease i cant rid myself of
- part of the ocd doesn’t allow me to give up certain tasks, mainly those involving relationships with boys, i took 2 years to get over David brown, who now ill realize ill never get, and never get to hang out with
- i could’ve been the best boyfriend for David brown, too bad he wasn’t gay
- too bad i wasn’t going to admit it either
- but who would it a whole school full of boys
- motherfuckers
I choose to be there
Oct 17th
I choose to still work at mc donalds despite how hard it is, I’m amazing at my job and could do better as a crew trainer or manager, I could go to a better mc donalds but I choose to remain at merivale, he chooses for this friendship to be daily life, it’s singularly about him because I’m so addicted to him,
i need to get away from merivale, it drives me insane to work with him when im on a break from seeing him, it tears me up so much and i cant do anything about it, sometimes i just wanna walk out but it wont achieve anything except for possibly loose me my job and just make me more sad and angry,
i find it so hard to keep my cool, he keeps giving me the break look, like hes uneasy with it, like i made that way or something, i just want to punch things, it makes me so angry inside that hes like this and driving me to resignation, i really like working there and some of the people, some of the people i loved so much left and some are still there and then theres sam whos driving me out and the other retards who cant make it happen and make me wonder why they find it so hard to make food in paper bags,
i wish i could be a manager so i could sort all the crap out and demand a bit of respect from the crew who act like its a joke, i should just leave and go to another mc donalds and hopefully get realised for the service star that i am………
why
Mar 10th
what is your deal, i dont understand
i dont understand how you can be so normal in person and act like nothings happening, it clearly is but you just playing it in the confort of your home, why cant you just tell me what you deal is and accept me?
its really bugging me that i keep seeing all my freinds are now also your freinds wtf, you dont even know half these people and you know i like them so whats they deal, are you just trying to ‘steal’ them right from under my nose, because its obvious, it may sound stupid but that exactly how i feel towards this, maybe its not like that who knows but your definately acting strange,
ive heard about how your twofaced and i think its fucking discusting, you are freinds with people to be thier freind, not to talk behind thier back at every oppourtunity you get, you know this is true so why dont you sort out a soloution, i think some people would be a lot happier, i thought i had a freind in you but you just think im creepy, you just think im a pedo, and you never talk, if it bothers you that i make you belive some things arent true then sweet as i can stop, but tbh i cant even talk to you so what does it matter,
im not creepy and im not a pedophile if anyone you could be since you tried getting into beau, either way im not bothered, thats your deal.
all im asking is that you tell me what the fucks up, its better that i hear it from you than finding out from someone else
you know who you are theres enough clues
the end
Refresh
Feb 12th
so as you can see the site has undergone a theme refresh, its not quite finished yet but most of it is looking good, at the moment the profile pages are still a little bit screwed up, they still have bits that i havent edited which show up like blocks of white, but still im really pleased with how it looks, i also added links to the top set, – about – forum – hyrxx store, for quick access to those pages.
the refresh is to go along with the whole concept of me refreshing my style to better fit the definition of hyrxx. and as such follows a theme of black, pink, blue and green, this theme is also prevalent in my hair and such like, the theme is called blak ice.
all of the refreshment will be complete before march y2009!! so look out for the new refreshed hyrxx then!!
On Red Wine
Jan 29th
im not on red wine lol. it was just the first lyric that popped into my head, i just sorta woke up about an hour ago, and i was supposed to go to polytech today to sort out my course, but i forgot what time the appointment was which sucks hehe
but yeah i might cruise into town soon and post again later on if i have time, have a good day bitches
oh btw, search my name in google and the first result is my profile on my hyrxx.com and the sub result is hyrxx.com hehe
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My Adventures from the wknd lol
Nov 16th
in the weekend i went to town and met up with hana and co and mags, from there me and hana and aubrey went to aubreys house where he was having a fireworks party, heaps of people came, taine sam and casey, phaedra who asked a guy who was supposedly calling the cops, for a piece of his kfc, dan and megan, jack and kane, i think alice may have been there and few other people but i cant remember everyone lol,
today i went into town and me and hana and aubrey went to riccarton mall and me and aubrey went to borders to see if tyler was there but he wasnt lol
after that i went to my mums for dinner and saw lisa and my sister haha 
shes just jealous for not geting mentioned ever lol
i have work tomorrow at 8 30 so that sucks but yeh i think chris is going to see me tomorrow yay lol anyways catch up soon lata!!################### <33333
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Nothing
Nov 9th
I havent posted the past few days due to being quite busy doing some things
i voted on election day for the aotearoa legalise cannabis party, as i think they were the only party who deserved a vote but bill and ben came close, i knew national would win and its great they did,
i went to my freind martins drinks and then went to town later on and them went home and woke up at about 3, lol my mind is a little blank at the moment but im gonna try get back into the swing of things tomorrow
lata
Organisment
Nov 3rd
Today i woke up and watched cartoons in bed for about an hour then i got up and put my washing on then went grocery shopping and then did my dishes, last night i wrote another to do list ill probs put a link on my site so its like those ones evry1 puts on thier bebo profile
At the moment im just chillin and doing nothing for a while but ill probs motivate myself to do some thins of my list later lol anyways peace XX. <3333
http://hyrxx.com/pages/to-do-list Todolist <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
Starbuxx today
Oct 25th
Im working pretty much all day from 1:30 till 8 pm but ill be in town at about 12:30
come see me at starbux if its not to busy,
not sure what im gonna do after that but anyways ill post later on maybe if i dont go out!!
New VIDEOS up soon!!!
~*CHUR*~
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Nov 15th
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And What Cunt. The Second Series. :
wun. you are mint az bro, btw im beached as bro, oy na fucking mad times with you bro fucken ae haha good bitch fa shoa, man i could write so much bwt u haha <3333333333
toowe. Goooood bitch, fuck i love hanging out with you esp when you show up at such random tyms lol, but fucking mint tyms bro, keeping it real forever and just doing all that cool shit that we do mofo, shit, nigga please give this bitch an award or summin
chur,,, ch
threyee. are you even alive wtf why i neva c u lol, miss u,
Fowa, hey hows your little thing going on with that thing that my sister dont like or w/e maybe im not even talking about anything, anyways chur
fyve, i havent seen you in ages then you just popped up the other day i couldnt belive it, its so trippy ae, what you up to now shit im still waiting for that thing u owe me, anyways shot you cool heh <33333
Sexe, you could probably say, im like pretty much your NUMBER 1, #1 FAN!!!!!!!!!, UHM im Talking to you on msn or was haha, i wanna meet you and hang out with you, i think you real cool ae just from reading your profile and what ive heard from people that know you, and watching your funny youtube videos, theyre awesome bro!!!!!!!! i hope your read this, if you are, i hope youll leave me a comment on this, xo <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<333333333, i tried to see yooh today!! hehe.
Sehvene, haha i think your real cool, weve been freinds on bebo for a while and i harldy ever talk to you, i visit your profile all the time, lol it was funny when you got drunk, i also think that its real funny about that thing about the person who still loves you and shit, your so little!!!! omg, thanks for the pic for my site <3<3 xo
ate. i think your a retard, what you did today was fucking stupid and there was no reason try that BS on me mother fucker. looser.
Nyne, i had a different thing for this yesterday but now seeing what happend today i think youve sorted it out, thank you you did a great job, respect for you, your cool k!!! <333 u
Tenne. i miss you, yes yooh, oh wait uhm “just tell me which one i am”, when are you gonna shout me a sesh lol, uhm “lmao im doing a blog”, LMAO you are mint, i still dont think you happy, waiiting for your coolness…. always. shot bro, you help me out so much and i enjoy our long chats hahaa.
Elevene. i think your cool, im definately a big fan and i hope you sorta realise but neways shame bwt utube, keep doing your blog bro, its cool, and lol accept me on bebo, i know who you still like haha they told me. @@@XXXfrom####
Twelvee. im so hungry, i miss you like a notepage, i bet you dont even know wot im on bwt, haha are you wasted??, oi mean as haha stfu what are you talking about end not just kidding actual just tricked you haha
Theerteen. im glad you finally realised a lot of shit, your nearly there, well done keep going son, thanks for listening, your playing the game good haha your older
mean party oi
fowateene haha i love you fuck your awesome its great fun hanging with you, i think about you when i watch spongebob lawl
fihfteen stop looking at me
sexteene. i love you, its definately you if you are reading this
seventeene. has it been 3 months yet?<333
ateene. your mint, im still wondering if you wrote about me in your blog if you did then i know what one i am. and i can assure you i am sweet az. good hanging with you at that party, i put the pix up on my site
nynteene. i could (i know everyone says this but shit, in your case i stand to defend this) write a book about you. your so amazing, you flashbox is the shit lmao, good seeing you today haha, .. cool chatting with you, it helped me, about that thing yknow uhm yeh shot bro you da shit, im so wasted lol shout you a seshie soon oii lawls
twentee. i missed you, you bk now cnt wait to see you ae. i hope you got me something nah jokes tax LMAO you oi haha wish you were here since the whole week lol
twenwun. where have you been, stop smoking that cone and come to town, shit brother what have you been doing lol hahaha
twentoo. i SUPPOSE you deserve a mention ae
love you!
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+ More to come <3