im still not much better, i told sam that our freindship was over but im still not sure if it was the right thing to do, when i asked him why we should still be freinds, he said because we work together, i couldnt justify that as enough reason to keep him as a freind, i cried again tonight because now to me it seems like im gonna be sad if he is or if he isnt my mate,

i just wanted him to give me a chance, i wanted him to try but he doesnt even want me, i wish he realised how sad i am and at least consider me

for some reason he signed up on hyrxx.com today, when you sign up it auto makes you my friend, i felt compelled to click remove freind, but i left it, did he sign up to try and become my freind, i dont think he showed much towards our freindship but maybe he saw that i cared for him…. time will tell i guess